“Am I really making a difference?”
“Where do I want to be right now?”
So I decided to start this entry with a quote from a book which I’ve just read.. It’s a book written by David Nicholls called One Day. The relevance? You’ll know later.. Just keep on reading. :]
But first, let me introduce myself to you, dear reader. I am a 20-year old nurse. I graduated last April 2011 and took my licensure exam July of the same year and luckily, I passed. I was euphoric when I finally got my license! It was the best feeling in the world, to have your license and finally say, “Yes! I am a registered nurse!” I am aware that there are hundreds of nurses today, some with jobs and are successful, others unemployed, while others are volunteers.. Back when I was still in college, I had a second-courser classmate, she was an accountant, but then she still wants to study nursing. Somebody asked her, “Why are you still studying nursing?” And she answered, “I believe that I can give my family a better future if I am a nurse.” I used to believe that too.. Some of you may think that it’s kinda shallow, but you know, when you’ve got that dream, you’ll do everything to achieve it, right?
I was a volunteer nurse for about 4 months until I realized that there is no sense of fulfillment being a volunteer.. In fact, I never got the point of being a volunteer nurse you know.. They used to tell me, “Be a volunteer for a year and then you can go abroad.” And I said to myself, I don’t need to go abroad if I have a great job here, in my own country. And one thing that I also learned? Majority of the agencies nowadays don’t accept VNs. They want staff nurses with 2-3 years experience. So, I realized that being a volunteer won’t help me at all! Unless you are a rich kid and only looking for personal growth. But if you have a family to feed and to help, being a VN doesn’t help, at all. You see, no salary or allowance and yet you work hard.. So I left and applied to other institutions and programs of the government that I know, in my opinion, can help me achieve that “sense of fulfillment” being a nurse.
I’ve also applied to the so-called RNHEALS. It’s a project of the DOH that aims to help nurses and the government actually pays them. I think they get 8k per month. So I thought that this RNHEALS can help me and my family. So I tried… and waited. Till Feb.28, 2012 came, and pictures where all around Facebook.. They got hired, and well, I was not. I asked one of them, “Buti ka pa natawagan..” And she replied, “Yung kasing tito ko nagtatrabaho sa DOH, pinasok niya ako.” And then I thought, “BACKER”.. Isang sistemang hindi nawawala sa Pilipinas. Kung may kakilala ka sa isang ahensya ng gobyerno at “malakas” ang taong iyon, sosyal ka, wala kang hirap makapasok sa trabahong gusto mo dahil for sure, pasok ka na!. But how about us ordinary citizens of the Philippines who doesn’t have any relatives/friends na pwede kaming ipasok? Of course, we have to trust our own abilities, right? But I was really disappointed when I found out that most of the people na natawagan sa batch ng RNHEALS na ito ay de-backer. I was disappointed, frustrated and started to doubt the government and PNoy. He was the one who kept saying, “tuwid na daan” and now? What? Nasaan ang tuwid na daan na sinasabi niya kung ginagamit ng mga makapangyarihang tao ang posisyon at power nila para ipasok ang mga kamag-anak/kaibigan nila sa trabaho? I am not saying na hindi sila deserving, but what about the others who are more deserving in some ways?
So now, “Why am I here?” “Why am I writing these things?” Gusto ko lang sanang imulat ang mga tao at hopefully ma-realize ng mga ibang tao sa gobyerno na hindi tama ang ginagawa nila. They only think for themselves. Try thinking about other people too.. The ones who really need it.. The ones who entrusted themselves, their lives to them. That is why they’re on their position, in hopes that they can make a difference. Someone needs to voice these things out, or else, nothing will happen. And yes, I hope that this will make a difference and give those who are more qualified and deserving a chance.
And lastly, “Where do I want to be right now?” For the nurses like me, where do you want to be right now? Would you like to be a volunteer nurse forever? Or would you like to stand up for your rights? The right to be self-fulfilled and settle for what you deserve, not just for you, but also for your family? To give them a better future, because you are not just a nurse, you are a proud nurse.. And YOU, are making a difference.
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