I went home from work this morning with a long-staying pat on my back. It’s like a Lidocaine patch or something like Salonpas. One of my patients during the shift told me something really beautiful. I was so flattered- I don’t feel like I’m at work during that 5- minute moment with him. He even cleared out my idea that he was the one I saw from last week. The one beside my previous patient. The only difference is that he had something on his nose which was connected to suction machine. At first, I was trying to check him in my most silent way if he’s already awake since I need to check his vital signs. I decided to step back when I saw his eyes closed. But then, just when I’m about to get out of his room, I heard him calling my name, “Josh?”. He even pronounced it wrong but like the usual, I always understand them. Yes, a lot of them call me Josh. I went back in with my vital signs machine. I took his vitals, ask him if he’s okay, and if he wants to be repositioned. He gladly told me, Yes!. That’s totally different from somebody not looking at you sincerely and trying to ask you to do one thing while you’re not yet finish with one task. Let’s talk about panic attack. After I took his vital signs including his blood sugar and repositioned him, he then asked me a question which I haven’t heard for quite a while. He asked me, Josh, where did you come from? I returned it with, “what do you mean sir? Like where is my home country?” He said, “Yes”. I told him, I’m from the Philippines. With a bit of closure there on that response. I really don’t want to elaborate our conversation as I wanted to hasten things so I can move on with work. On a side-lying position, I can see his eyes being supported by his abducens muscles, still wanting to maintain that eye contact with me. I think this fine man on his 70’s is really sincere. He then asked me, is that where you get your formal training? He followed, I mean where did you get your training because you are seem so confident and very good about what your doing. I was already feeling that pat on my back the moment he uttered the word “good”. It feels so different compared to your own self- evaluation or trying to read the face of your boss after doing a special task. He also shared, ” you know last week, I was hoping that you were also my nurse, I was already noticing you from the other bed in my room, that man who had you as a nurse was so lucky, you were so attentive to him.” It felt like my whole 12 hours was paid off tripled the rate. It didn’t even matter on that context. To continue, I told him where I got my training. With firm conviction and pride, I told him I graduated in the Philippines. He didn’t reacted much but asked me this second question, ” where are you planning to retire? Are you going back in the Philippines when that time comes?” It took me like a minute to answer his second question. I wanted to be as honest and sincere as he was. I told him, “Right now, I’m not really thinking of retiring yet. But when that time comes, I will have to consider what is best for me. For sure, I’m gonna be going back and forth to the Philippines since my loved ones are there.”
But the real answer to his second question is- “I just want to retire at this moment”. I just want to savor this great feeling at work. I hope retiring can be defined as working. Lesson to this, you’ll never know who’s looking at you. When you’re too busy, you tend to keep your eye on the tunnel. Quality happens when you do things with sincerity. So, whatever we do, wherever we are, let’s do it like where born to do it. Honesty begets sincerity, and sincerity begets honesty.
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