Most of us might think that life isn’t hard especially if we are being supported by our parents all the way. In all that we do and in all that we wanted, they are there, always on our side and never let us fall in our endeavours. We are very lucky if we have the kind of parents who can provide us emotionally and financially. Then maybe you’ll say, “Why do I need to find a job when all I ever wanted is given if I ask for it?” That’s where maturity gets into the picture.
I just turned twenty-two last 31st of December 2011. I graduated last March 2010 and after taking my licensure exam in December 2010, the result was released on February which was one of the happiest and proudest day of my life and my family as well, when I saw my name on the list of the passers. When I was busy reviewing for my boards and busy hanging out with my friends at the same time, I never really thought of the things I will be doing after the board. My family had plans for me when I entered college and took up nursing. I already admitted to myself that I no longer have the free will to choose what to do after college. It was already planned that after passing the board exam, I will get all the necessary trainings and go abroad.
Before the board results were released I asked permission from my family that I wanted to find a job in Manila. I was in Iloilo back then and that was December 2010. My aunt, who generously provided my one month vacation allowed me to go to Manila but only for a vacation. They wouldn’t let me find a job outside medical field. I was very disappointed. You’re very enthusiastic and although you have the feeling that you wanted to try other options, spread your wings and explore world’s horizon, they just could not give it to you. Why?! My cousin who’s of my age is already earning and living independently that time and I was so envious of her. I was very eager to work back then yet I have always been the good daughter. I don’t want them to be disappointed of me so I just shut my mouth. I came home by February and after knowing that I passed the exam, I processed my requirements for the oath taking and started to take all the trainings needed to be able to apply as a volunteer nurse. They gave me everything I needed. But at the end of the day, there’s this empty feeling that I am not cut for this. That I am unhappy. I can see my batch mates earning for themselves, already bought a car and you are just there, insecurity kills you that although your family gives you what you needed it just boils down to the fact that you’re unemployed. You don’t have a job and you’re a big bummer. It’s not something you can be proud of and tell everybody that “Hey! I’m just too lucky that I don’t need to find a job just like you because my parents are giving me all I wanted.” How embarrassing!
It wasn’t easy to apply for nurse volunteer positions in hospitals. Aside from the fact that you need to submit a lot of requirements, you also need to prepare to spend another thousand for those trainings. It took a lot of courage (a year) to convince my family to let me work in Manila. Try any job and let me live independently. After noticing that I am just hanging out with my friends and is unproductive, they eventually said yes. I feel so euphoric that time. The kind of feeling that you can’t believe that soon, you’ll be on your own and free! I was on my way to the airport when one of my aunt texted me “With freedom comes great responsibility”. I laughed and was close to text her back that “Time is gold”. I was just so happy. But after a few days of living in Manila, everything sank in. My aunt’s words came flashing back in my mind like a pirated cd. Gone were my princess life where everything was served. I never did any chores at home. I don’t do the laundry for my clothes, wash the dishes, clean the house, and cook my food. And I have to do everything here in Manila because this is what I wanted, my independence. And what more? Facing rejections. I haven’t been rejected before and it took a lot of courage for me not to cry and feel bad when the company I was applying for rejected my capabilities. Who said it was easy to find a job? No one. And for us nursing graduate, there are limited jobs that are being offered outside our field so you must have the edge to ace it.
Year 2006, during my high school days, nursing courses were in demand and most parents wanted their children to take nursing. That is why there were lots of nursing students who were just forced to take the said course. And sadly, I belong to that category too. And the essence of the profession that it is one of the noblest professions because of love and service nurses give to their patients, is starting to fade already. Most of us took nursing because of its promises of earning more abroad not because we wanted to serve our countrymen. Reality bites. There are lots of nurses that are unemployed and underemployed in our country and the figure just keeps on growing each school year. We are now a hopeless case and even if we try to work outside our field, more often than not, we aren’t accepted because of our course. That is based on experience, by the way. I just hope that there are companies and hospitals out there who will give us the chance to prove our worth. For some hospitals, don’t just base it on board rating and grades alone, give us chance to prove our skills and help us maximize them because I believe that some may be good on theories but are poor on skills. For some companies, I believe that we nurses are flexible, trainable and can work under pressure, so why not give us chance to prove it? I hope I somehow inspire some of you. …
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