I am a nurse, and I have been away from my family for months now – working, adjusting and doing everything to be able to survive to this new environment.
There came a time when I asked myself, “why am i here? Why did I take up nursing? I should have taken another job or a different course” until I fell sleep with those things running through my mind. But then I woke up and saw this video which really makes sense. It brought me to a realization: hey, I should be proud! I asked for this in the first place. I remember what I said before enrolling in this course, “how am I supposed to be an effective nurse if, for myself, I wasn’t able to feel how to be a patient? Then suddenly, I was hospitalized. And now, I’m I’m here. 🙂
Years passed. I remember being a student – the late night duties, dealing with patients, reviewing so hard, feeling the tension while taking the board exam and the feeling like I’me going to die while waiting for the results, but after knowing that i passed makes you feel like I’m in heaven. 😀 Knowing that I are moving closer to my dreams, facing the reality of working, having to take so many tests, interviews and more just to be where I am right now.
I have told myself before that I am in no hurry for I know that the time will come for me, but there were times that I still asked myself ‘can’t it move faster? I’m getting a little bored’. Then I would just smile and wonder, “Am I happy ith what I’m doing Is this what I really want? Duties, busy or not, is still a toxic”. But somewhere in my subconscious mind, I guess I still feel happy to know that one of my long-time patients or critical patients have been discharged. It makes me feel fulfilled knowing I have helped someone recover even in my own little ways. It was only my job, but it has a great impact. Is it really just my job that I do? A voice says that ‘it was a GIFT given to me’.
A gift, huh? Anybody can take temperature and count heart and rerespiratory rate. How can that be a gift? Then the voice would answer again, “yes, mamy can do those things you usually do, but not everybody has been blessed to be a nurse like you”.
I now believe that I have a special gift, a gift to help change some people’s lives, to be able to uplift people when they’re down, to be able to lessen one’s pan.
Now I say, yes I may be far from my family, but I believe I am destined to do this as a blessed nurse who uses His gift to me. 🙂
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