Me, Dreaming

Dreams and goals (Photo credit: personalexcellence)
Dreams and goals (Photo credit: personalexcellence)
Dreams and goals (Photo credit: personalexcellence)
Dreams and goals (Photo credit: personalexcellence)

I am a graduate of a Nursing school. Not among the top caliber ones, but my school was able to make a name on the field when Nursing was still considered as a noble profession, not a tool of bringing you to greener pastures. We were among the few who witnessed how Filipinos were easily captivated of how good in money-making this profession can be. Passing the local board, taking IELTS, TOEFL, NCLEX, CGFNS, and have a decent clinical experience, and Viola,  you can earn good amount of money. We’re not talking pesos here, but pounds, dollars, or euros. My family was no exception. With a promise of a brighter future, I took up Nursing. And the rest was history.

After four years of uphill climb and two months of tedious preparation for the boards, not to mention the thrill and at-the-edge-of-a-seat feeling of looking for your name in the list of successful examinees, I became an RN. Although I was supposed to be happy with what I accomplished, I was not. Frankly speaking, it was not my problem to pass the board, but to land a spot in the top ten. Do you know the feeling that you kind of expected that, but you never actually achieved it? That’s how I felt. Because I know, deep in me, it will be tough to land a job in this field without recognition or a backer. That’s how cruel Philippine settings can be.

Being such a lazy person that I am, never did I attend any seminar – BLS, IVT, Critical care, or what have you, because at the back of my mind, I will not be able to use it. Plus, did they mention that it has to be renewed? So, as a trend, I worked in a call center company. Here, they provide paid training and a good compensation, which, unfortunately, is the exact opposite of hospital setting. The law clearly states, that once you become a professional, you can render your services for a fee, not for FREE. They call it training, volunteering, I call it exploitation. Tired of the same, old, never ending garbage system of the Philippines, I gave up my dream of saving lives – in the hospital, that is.

Your plans may change, but not your passion. It is supposed to be dynamic, adaptable and versatile. I took up nursing to hit two birds with one stone, pleasing my parents and fulfilling my dream by having a Master’s degree and teach the future generations of nurses. It was my dream to be an educator, and it still is. But with the current trend in the healthcare industry, it would be a long and hard shot. With that being said, I resulted to a more realistic dream – to be a science teacher. I may not be able to literally save lives, but with where I am now, I can save lives – from ignorance. I’m at the Philippine Normal University, taking CTP and education units so I can take the LET, yet another state board exam.

That’s the funny thing about dreams, there’s simply no easy way out, and when you managed to make them a reality, the fruit of your labor is sweeter than a diabetic person. And the good part? You can go and find a new dream.

author: penandpaper


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